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"Why do people say, 'Follow your heart,' when it's your heart you can't trust?" Jerks.. :|
i have nuthing to rite dese days.. i am so blank.. have turned so insensitive.. it's all becoz of dose 4 letters..wat shuld i rem n wats more important to me .. da love dat we shared,da memories dat we shared or u .. :( damn damn damn..! it's a crazy feeling .. It's crazy. It's like finding something that you haven't been looking for and have always wanted... i have turned insane..
i wanna be mahself.. return bck to normality... help...!! why is dat wen i start writing i think bout him.. i am pissed wid many things.. hope dey get bck to normal orelse i will go mad .. Huh..! :|

Christiano .. ! Aww love him shooo much . .:D

Der's sumthing abt his eye's i tell ya..! :P i have been his fan since da day i started watchin soccer.. he's been one of da reasons i started watchin soccer .. Christiano ronaldo guess da name says it all..! ohh he's one of da hottest footballer i have ever seen.. n yes not to forget a gr8 player..:) i love da way he play's his game.. he's brilliant .. :)
i gues wen he signed da manchester United he was arnd 18yrs n since den no lookin bck .. he has been da sought after player since den.. he played for his national side scored wel n now he's da star of manchester united team.. :D his achievements have been gr8 since he joined dis team .. he was manchester's 1st eva portuguese player..
i can't believe i am writing abt a soccer player.. hehe..! maybe dats coz wen i think of soccer i think of christiano .. :P i sleep late at nite wen's der's a manchester's match cuming up.. from dat u can sense how krazy i am for him ..:) i hope he plays really well in da cuming times.. shine really well..!
Btwn i am really waiting 4 da finals where manchester is takin on da barca for da UEFA champions league.. dat would be a helluva match i tell u folks..! hope christiano scores n plays brilliantly well.. n i hope manchester b'com da champs yet again . .
lastly i wanna conclude by sayin.. Ohh' Christiano i love u tons..!! all da best to manchester n my christiano .. :D :D

Friendship ..

" I Love my Frnds " dis is what i wana start my blog wid . . i have had many of em but da ones i have now are really precious to me.. they have changed my life for da good,been der wid me n supported me in my very bad times.. it feels so empty widout em arnd .. my frnds are my flashlight batteries.. ha ha..! der were times wen i was surrounded by a bunch of losers whom i called my frnds.. but now things have changed for me..
dese people are really important because dey are sumone after ur parents who want to see u happy in wateva u do, dey scold u weneva u go wrng n da best thing is dey neva leave u in da middle ... :) eveytime i see em i want em more.. now i realise dat to find sum gr8 frnds is a good fortune n if we manage to keep em den its our blessing.. A frnd is sumone who can see through da truth n da pain in u even if u are fooling everyone else.. A frnd is sumone who knws who u are,understands where have u been,accepts what u have b'cum n den simply allows u to grow... :)
i can very proudly say my frnds are da best .. my love for em is unconditional .. i can neva imagine my life widout em..i would neva wana lose em over my stupidity eva.. we neva know how much a person meant to u until u lose em.. neva take anyone for granted.. i did , i realised n i promise mahself i would neva repeat it..
so would end mah blog by sayin .. "it takes a lot of understanding,time n trust to gain a close frndship wid sumone,as i approach a time of my life's uncertainity i realised my frnd's are my most precious assets "
love u all .. ,
cheers..!

Sleepless Nites .. :)

its 2.16am i am still awake..! i dunn wana sleep coz i dun wana meet u in my dreams again.. watta life i have got.. it seems i have nuthing dat i can call mine..my life is all b'out having da rite person at da wrng time,having da wrong person wen da time is rite n finding dat u love sumone after they walk out of sight.. is dis wat we call da games played by life.. huh! disguisted ..!!
Love.. a four letter word dat makes a major impact into our lives.. y dis word hurts so much for sum plp..? why does it ache .. ? i ve never been afraid or scared of losing anything in my life , but wen i luk back nuthing meant as much as to me as u do..
Life is really kickin me hard..i dunno what to do where to go .. i know love will come take a hold of me, but i fear it coz dunn wana be hurted all ova again..
there are many lessons in life dat are learnt wen u try n spend ur days widout em.. i do miss sumone special in mah life.. i do miss sumone callin me his destiny.. where are you..? i want to forget him n start a new life..! but whoeva cumes fills da place breaks mah heart n leaves me in da middle of nowhere... i feel so incomplete... ! cum to me n make my life worth living.. :) awaiting ... :)

see by readin dis blog i guess u guys would feel how confused i am wid life..! dats all b'coz i want it to be perfect.... :)

lost love .. :)

sittin idle sum thots gushing my mind n sum questions that remain unanswered.. its feels like askin da whole world how does it feels like crying ur heart out and yet da sourness in ur heart hasn't gone.. ? how does it feel wen he's evrywhere arnd but isnt near u .. maybe it would ve been better i would have looked away da 1st time u looked at me, everything would have been diffenet now.. i m not sayin der wasn't anything wrong, i just didn't think u would eva get tired of me..
how can i forget u wen ur always on my mind..? how can i not love u wen ur always running on my mind.. ? who do u run to wen da one who once made me stop cryin is da one whose makin me cry now..? days continue to pass but my questions would definitely remain unanswered.. i wouldnt tell em as mistakes but i still hope forgettin u was as easy as loving u ..
i seriously can't understand da pain i am goin through now but i know that wid all da people who left me i neva had dis type of pain in my heart eva.. i still can't describe how i feel now..
they say time will heal all wounds.. i guess mine go deeper dan da pain i am feelin losing u.. u will neva realise wat type of love i had for u or maybe u do later..
cant say more how i feel,can't say if my heart would eva heal but i always knew from da start dat i neva really had ur heart eva.. so leave me now.. go away .. !
wateva it is i want u to be happy..its so difficult to let go of all da feelings i had for u.. I'll always have da memories but she ll always have u.. maybe its fate.. maybe dis is called Life.. :)
lastly wanna say .. I Miss You .. :)