Sleepless Nites .. :)

its 2.16am i am still awake..! i dunn wana sleep coz i dun wana meet u in my dreams again.. watta life i have got.. it seems i have nuthing dat i can call mine..my life is all b'out having da rite person at da wrng time,having da wrong person wen da time is rite n finding dat u love sumone after they walk out of sight.. is dis wat we call da games played by life.. huh! disguisted ..!!
Love.. a four letter word dat makes a major impact into our lives.. y dis word hurts so much for sum plp..? why does it ache .. ? i ve never been afraid or scared of losing anything in my life , but wen i luk back nuthing meant as much as to me as u do..
Life is really kickin me hard..i dunno what to do where to go .. i know love will come take a hold of me, but i fear it coz dunn wana be hurted all ova again..
there are many lessons in life dat are learnt wen u try n spend ur days widout em.. i do miss sumone special in mah life.. i do miss sumone callin me his destiny.. where are you..? i want to forget him n start a new life..! but whoeva cumes fills da place breaks mah heart n leaves me in da middle of nowhere... i feel so incomplete... ! cum to me n make my life worth living.. :) awaiting ... :)

see by readin dis blog i guess u guys would feel how confused i am wid life..! dats all b'coz i want it to be perfect.... :)

lost love .. :)

sittin idle sum thots gushing my mind n sum questions that remain unanswered.. its feels like askin da whole world how does it feels like crying ur heart out and yet da sourness in ur heart hasn't gone.. ? how does it feel wen he's evrywhere arnd but isnt near u .. maybe it would ve been better i would have looked away da 1st time u looked at me, everything would have been diffenet now.. i m not sayin der wasn't anything wrong, i just didn't think u would eva get tired of me..
how can i forget u wen ur always on my mind..? how can i not love u wen ur always running on my mind.. ? who do u run to wen da one who once made me stop cryin is da one whose makin me cry now..? days continue to pass but my questions would definitely remain unanswered.. i wouldnt tell em as mistakes but i still hope forgettin u was as easy as loving u ..
i seriously can't understand da pain i am goin through now but i know that wid all da people who left me i neva had dis type of pain in my heart eva.. i still can't describe how i feel now..
they say time will heal all wounds.. i guess mine go deeper dan da pain i am feelin losing u.. u will neva realise wat type of love i had for u or maybe u do later..
cant say more how i feel,can't say if my heart would eva heal but i always knew from da start dat i neva really had ur heart eva.. so leave me now.. go away .. !
wateva it is i want u to be happy..its so difficult to let go of all da feelings i had for u.. I'll always have da memories but she ll always have u.. maybe its fate.. maybe dis is called Life.. :)
lastly wanna say .. I Miss You .. :)

happiness

love can be more
love can be so much
I can't express myself now
bcuz love blow me away
It takes me to the place
and I called it paradise
love me .love me more
so much addicted to you
can't live without you
your trace is all over my place
love it and live it
It feels so much
I can't say anything that much now
bcus all i know is you
my days filled with so much happiness
and i can do anything
whatever i wanted to be
because your love guide me
all the way
to the path that leads me to
live now and forever be with you...

love

There were times I felt alone and I don't know what to do,
Wondering what I've done wrong that I've lost you.

It seemed I felt the earth's surface again, I'm back to reality,
The truth is painful to accept, I know that you don't love me.

It's hard to understand why love is so unfair,
I had always been by your side, but you were never there.

I try to smile and give a big grin to hide what is true,
I know what I feel would never fade but I'll get over you.